Little Moments: 3/20/22

I’d like to say it’s been an eventful day, but it really hasn’t. Hasn’t been a lazy day either. I’ve spent most of the day with my hair up in an unflattering bun and typesetting a book as part of my work with FlowerSong Press. Which, btw, many new book releases are coming up – including one of my own! I’ll share details soon!

This cup of Joe to the left was to entice me to be productive this morning as I left home and headed over to my sister’s house. Most of my family is out in Colorado for a week-long trip during Spring Break and I’m on auntie puppy sitting duties.

For breakfast, I made myself some weenie and egg tacos, and made sure to toast up some of the weenies for my puppy niece to snack on too. I had a chisme session with my best friend, Esther, who now lives in Fort Worth and heard me complain about how it’s not fair I haven’t found a coffeeshop partner after she left. It’s really an art to go to a coffeeshop and pretend to work while chit-chatting and sharing silent moments for hours on end. There was so much to catch up on, a few tears and venting, and I’m really excited I get to see her next month at the annual TLA conference.

After our chat, I got straight into working for a few hours and also made a few updates to my website, which I should really put more time into.

During breaks, I’d go pet the puppy, who is more of a viejita than she is a puppy. But my motto is: once a puppy, ALWAYS a puppy. La chiflada would follow me to the kitchen every time I went to reheat my coffee, thinking she’d be getting a snack.

Today I wanted to fill my mind with purpose because it’s a day of grief. The anniversary of when we buried my mami four years ago. And although it seems it’s been more than enough time to have dealt with it, I can’t help but to be filled with sadness. I woke up knowing I should go to the panteón to leave her some flowers, and I felt she would appreciate that, but my heart is to heavy and I don’t have the strength to go alone today. My chat with Esther this morning really helped fill that void of loneliness.

It didn’t help that I took a midday break to snack on a quesadilla as I watched an episode of ‘Life after Death with Tyler Henry’. Puro llorar! Do you believe in mediums?

It’s been a gloomy day and I’m grateful for the comadres that have reached out to me. I made plans for dinner next week at Mercado District, which I will try to blog about, with two former coworkers of mine. They are the most fun to catch up with, and have been a part of my journey after mami’s death.

This image here is of my sister’s backyard. Her neighbors in back have several horses and a lot of brushland that reminds me of my childhood in Las Milpas. Standing out there just looking at it gave me some comfort.

For now, I’ll pack up my laptop and head home for a bit. Made plans to go for a cruise this evening to just get to catch-up with a dear friend. Hasta luego!

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